Is in teaching you to have a voice, when you are able to speak YOUR TRUTH, you become EMPOWERED, when you are EMPOWERED you are STRONG and from STRENGTH comes COURAGE.
“No matter what you have said or done, I still stand strong today, full of hope and courage, what was once my biggest hardship is now my biggest BLESSING”
Honoring Ourselves Promotes Empowerment
In June of 2007 I was at a very low point in my life. So low in fact, that the thoughts of ending my life were very real and felt merited. My entire childhood and adult life to this point had been surrounded by sexual and emotional abuse.
The negative words that had been spoken into me as a child over and over again had become that ugly voice in my head, and unfortunately my truth. The feelings of being worthless and unwanted were grounded in me like roots from a 100 year old tree. Guilt and shame covered me like a sticky substance that wouldn’t wash away, no matter what I did. My pain at that time was so real. How does a child speak up to say that family friend is hurting them. You don’t, you act out, as you don’t know that there is another way to express yourself. The sequence of events that were about to unfold next, would land me behind bars for the next 6 months. When I look back now, as hard as it is for me, being arrested that night was a blessing, I believe it actually saved my life.
So why am I telling you this???
My body, my choices, my rights, my voice, were taken every time I was being abused. Had I known, that I would of been heard, somehow I would of found the courage to use my voice, and speak up! The physical abuse was hard, but the emotional abuse and the scars they’ve left behind, were in fact the most damaging.
I spent 40 years of my life believing I was worthless, unlovable, unattractive, a disgrace, weak, stupid. I was filled with shame & guilt for what had happened to me, I had allowed someone else to define who I was.
Today, I have embraced God’s truth to tell me who I am, I am EMPOWERED, BEAUTIFUL, PROUD, SUCCESSFUL, POWERFUL, HAPPY, LOVABLE, & GENUINE, and live each day of my life to the best of my ability. My greatest gift however, is in telling my story, and in making a difference. I once read a very powerful statement ” wherever your misery has been, is also where your ministry will be” and so I continue to have this burning desire to say to anyone who will listen, “Believe in HOPE”, because each new day is an opportunity to start new. You can be whatever you want, or whomever you see yourself being. I believe that there is a plan and purpose for all of us. We have been created fearfully and wonderfully, you can do all that you can imagine. No longer do you need to define yourself by the lies of others.
Never, ever underestimate the possibilities of what your life can be.
Never, under value yourself or allow someone else to determine your worthiness.
Never, allow someone’s opinion or actions take you off course or lose sight of your goals
Plant that seed of HOPE in your mind, so that you may always BELIEVE in yourself, have FAITH in your vision, TRUST in God, celebrate your STRENGTH, & COURAGE.
” Never Lose Hope”
Lady of Hope